Letters...

Dear Winter,

You suck. Where's my snow?

No Love,
Sarah

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Dear Rain,

You suck too. Go away.

No love,
Sarah
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Dear Germs/Virus,

I don't want you. Get out of my body.

No love,
Sarah
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Dear Blogger,

Your formatting is stupid and it makes me mad when I have to go and edit the HTML so that I actually have paragraphs in my blog posts. Why does that happen? Why do you do this to me?

In Frustration,
Sarah
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"Okay, so. Let's take some names from a book and use them in a movie..." -Me after seeing Eragon.

Honestly... THAT quote ^ describes the whole movie. Laura and I saw it together this afternoon. It's a good movie, it just should be taken separate from the book... Otherwise you're gonna be really upset. Good graphics, good music, weak main villain, but... Well. Just go see it. And DON'T compare it to Lord of the Rings. That's not fair. Lord of the Rings is amazing and nothing can compare to it.

After the movie Laura and I went to Perkins where we commenced to talking for... oh... I don't know.. Probably almost four hours. It was a good time. I was finally able to give her the project I intended as a "going away to college" gift.... Well, it didn't get done.... And then her birthday went by... and Christmas... but FINALLY it got done. And she loved it. :-D It was a wooden chest that I had glued all sorts of quotes and lyrics and covered the whole thing. It's actually pretty cool. :-) It was a really good time... Over dinner we both ranted and raved and talked and mulled and discussed... It was nice. :-)

Now I'm sitting here, wearing my mom's sweater because I'm cold, and eating Gobstoppers and Conversation Hearts... Two of my favorite candies! :-) And talking online... I think I'll go to bed relatively early tonight... Hopefully this sneezy-cold will get better.

Quirks...

This is a random list of my personality quirks and preferences... No one is obligated to read it... It's more for me to organize my thoughts and to square with some of the things I struggle with...

I like to draw, but I don't have time and I can tell that the skill I worked hard to develop in high school has diminished.

I have a weird and sometimes morbid sense of humor. It's usually not very hard to make me laugh.

I'm ticklish. Sometimes this is an understatement.

I don't like how stupid/trivial things make me mad sometimes.

I like to make up stories, although the stories I have rarely end up on paper.

Sometimes I wonder about weird things… Like, in stories why does the younger brother of the king ALWAYS have to be bad? And do penguins taste good? (Can you even eat penguins?)

I love music to a ridiculous extent. It's something I can't convey with an adequate measurement. I don't know what I would do if I wasn't a music major… I love performing music and listening to music and talking about music with my friends…

…But WHY is making time to practice so hard for me? Why do I let myself put if off so often? Why does the innate need to practice kick in when finals are two weeks away and not at the beginning of the semester?

I'm very lazy, very often and that makes things hard sometimes. It's easy to let procrastination run my life.

I often succeed at making my life 10 times more difficult then it needs to be. Why is that?

I also seem to have a keen ability to create awkward situations for myself.

Sometimes I think positive attention is my heroin and jealousy is my worst withdrawal symptom.

I think Katherine Hepburn's role in Desk Set would be my ideal character to play on stage.

I'm not used to having people around me who actively try to cheer me up when I'm having a bad day.

I enjoy intellectual humor. As well as British humor, and humor that involves "geeky" stuff, like Lord of the Rings and STAR WARS.

I'm a sucker for a happy ending.

I hate being by myself, but that doesn't mean I'm afraid to do things on my own.

I'm not used to having friends who are there for me and want to help me get through my problems.

It still feels new and unusual to me have friends who want to do things with me, who will wait for me when I have stuff going on, and who want to visit me when I'm away.

I'm actually incredibly nosy and curious, but I think I've just gotten a little better at judging when I should ask "What's going on?" when overhearing other conversations and when to let things slide, even though I desperately want to know.

My life would be so much easier if I didn't get so COLD all the time.

Most of the time I just feel smart enough to get by.

Sometimes jokes and sarcasm are my way of hiding my insecurities.

It takes a lot for me to actually show when I am mad/upset. It takes even more for me to actually cry in front of other people. Movies don't count.

Sometimes I wish I knew if a guy was trying to win my affections or just simply wanting to get to know me better.

I am very impatient.

Sometimes scrolling through Facebook makes me a little depressed.

At school I see couples of all sorts and wonder when it'll be my turn.

I am a dog person, but I do enjoy cats as well.

I'm a sucker for a guy who can sing.

My favorite color is green.

I am a city girl who loves horses and wants to learn how to ride them one day.

I am scared of heights, but not flying.

I tend to overanalyze things… Although I work hard trying to keep it from getting out of control.

9 times out of 10 I will choose an action-adventure movie over a chick-flick.

Sometimes I don't know what to think, and that bothers me.

Sometimes I forget how lucky I really am.

Sometimes I like to people-watch.

I'm very bossy and independent… Sometimes this makes it hard for me to ask for help.

I've realized that it's kind of silly to say "When I grow up, I want to be—" now that I'm twenty years old…

I get mad sometimes when people can't deal with their own problems. Ever.

I like to try and understand the motivations of others.

Sometimes it seems that my life is just as messed up as anyone else's… But I think I'm just better at hiding it.

Sometimes people in general just make me mad at the world.

I don't like being blunt.

I struggle with feelings of inadequacy.

I hate how hormones make me moody.

I'm oddly opinionated.

My life is tough and it's often hard for me to plough through alone.

I really have no clue what I'm doing. But I've gotten better at bluffing.

I get really frustrated when people tell me I'm better off being single.

I hate being excluded/left out.

I have a temper… It just takes a lot to get it going.

I don't like seeing my friends sad or unhappy.

Sometimes I talk too much.

Why does it seem like I am the one who thinks of and remembers the little things that turn out to be important?

I wish I had the courage to ask people from my past WHAT they were thinking and WHY did they do that to me.

Sometimes I get tired of being confused with my younger sister.

Sometimes I really hate not having a car.

Fiction books are my escape.

I hate student loans.

I can be bitingly sarcastic.

I am naïve.

I don't think I show it very often, but sometimes I have problems dealing with people who also have dominant personalities like mine.

Sometimes I feel socially inept.

I often feel scared that I won't be loved or accepted.

I wish I had been to more high school dances… more then just one at least…

Sometimes it's hard for me to deal with my friends getting really cool, awesome expensive gifts when I know that there's no way on earth my family could afford to give me anything like that.

I don't like not being the best at everything.

I would love to learn how to fence.

My experiences in high school have conditioned me to often wonder why on earth would people want to hang out with me.

I am very independent… And yet I struggle with being single. How does that work?

I miss being in jazz band.

It's hard for me to judge how much I've grown/matured, although I do acknowledge that I've changed.

I have a "bird-dog" personality.

I wish I knew how to swing dance. And just dance in general.

I have control issues… I've lost count how of many times I've had to remind myself that God needs to be in charge of my life, not me.

Happy Christmas!!!

I hope everyone has had a good day, filled with love and family and all that corny, warm-fuzzy stuff! :-)

I must say, I am happy with this Christmas! (Although I must admit that going to bed at 3:30 am and then being woken up at 7:30 not the best way to start any day, but hey I survived.) Opening presents was fun... I love watching Stephen's expressions... :-) Poor Daniel though... He hasn't felt well all day, so that's not very fun... To be sick on Christmas... After presants my siblings and I watched the Disney Christmas Parade... Which was pretty awesome... I'd love to go to one of the Disney parks someday... (Maybe when I'm a band director I can make it a band trip...)

Then I took a nap...

I got up around 2 pm and set up my Pirates of the Caribbean Battleship game... But I didn't play it.

Then I read Eragon pretty much all day. I have about 100 pages left! w00t! I'll admit it... It's a pretty cool book!

The big family dinner was good! Yummy ham and mashed potatoes... All that awesome stuff!:-)

One of the presents I got today was this:

It sings "A Pirate's Life for Me" it moves AND it glows in the dark... I LOVE IT! :-D

Well, that's all for now... I don't want to brag or gloat too much about my other stuff... So I hope you all have a great and blessed day! :-)

Happy Christmas Eve!

First of all check out this blog:

A Cavalcade of Bad Nativities

I promise much laughter and happiness... Make sure you read the titles of the posts as well as the awesome commentary... And don't forget to go through all three pages. :-)

Okay, I don't really feel like I have a lot to say, so consider this a warning that this post will be rather random.

Well, tomorrow is Christmas! :-) This makes me very happy, although there is still no snow outside. I must state that the sunshine we had today was MUCH better then then rain that we've been getting the rest of the week...

...I think it would be incredibly amazing if we woke up tomorrow to find at least a foot of snow on the ground.. :-) I doubt that would happen but it sounds like we miiiight get a dusting.

Mmmmm... I've been listening to the soundtracks of A Christmas Carol: The Musical, Muppet Christmas Carol and The Polar Express pretty much non-stop the past few days. :-) Music = Love!

My brother is watching Smallville. Why is Lex Luther perpetually bald? Did he EVER have hair?

Tonight I went through our easy note piano book of Christmas carols and played all the ones that I knew... (I skipped all the weird pop ones...) It was way happy! :-)

Tonight for dinner Dad made cheesey broccoli soup and clam chowder, as per my family's tradition. I don't like clam chowder, but the broccoli soup was deeeelicious!

Tonight, instead of sleeping in my dungeon, under the watchful eye of Clifford I will be sleeping up in the extra bunk in Philomena's room... I figured it would be easier to get up at 7am with everyone else and go down and see the presents all together...

...And before anyone says anything, yes, I think I've been pretty good this year. :-)

Well, I told you this was random... And I'm hungry, so I'm gonna go and get something to eat.

Happy Christmas!

"Punk music is a joke... It's really just Baroque"

Okay, many thanks to Amanda N. for posting this in her livejournal... I'm posting it here because it's hilarious.... I am addicted to it. Seriously. I've lost count how many times I've listened to it. I also posted it on Facebook and on my Myspace.

This video... I can't get over it... The first time I watched it... even through the 3rd time... I was shaking with silent laughter and crying... This 5 minute 12 second movie is the epitome of the hilarity that is my music geekiness....

I MISS MY MUSIC MAJOR FRIENDS!

I'm seriously reveling in the sheer hilarity of this video. There's no other way to describe it!

Oh! And many thanks to Rachel D. for notifying me of the title for the 7th Harry Potter book! (I know *gasp* I found out from someone else... Well, I was out for the day, so there.) It's Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. Not AS exciting (in my opinion) to me as The Order of the Pheonix or The Half Blood Prince, but I'm not JK Rowling... I am willing, however, to put money on the fact that the release date of the 7th book will be July 7, 2007.... 7/7/07... You know... 7th book, Harry's 17th birthday and 7th year at Hogwarts... etc...

Rainy Wednesday...

It has been raining all day. I think that is completely stupid, and depressing. I want snow! 5 days till Christmas and all we have to show for it is mud and dead grass. Does this mean we're going to have snow from, like, February to May? That really wouldn't make me very happy either...

Tonight for dinner we had goose and pheasant. It was good! I haven't had pheasant since before 1999.

Hmmm... The movie Flicka has made me miss having long hair... I kind of want to start growing mine out again... But it takes so long! And there's always that stage in the middle, where it's just below my shoulders and it's all bushy and hard to manage... And starting growing it out now means that it's gonna be getting long as the summer comes along....

And I'm still coughing a little... That's not really cool.

I'm not tired of my family yet, which is good, although home life is a little boring... I need to start on the Christmas presents for my family, and go to Jo-Ann Fabrics to get fleece.

I am halfway through Eragon! I really like that book! I think the 1st time I tried to read it I was still going strong on my Harry Potter kick and so I found it boring in comparison. Reading it now, I find it a very good epic story.

Sometimes I read other people's blogs and I wish I could write like they do... With poems and lyrics and little stories that would only make sense to me. Maybe it would make me seem deep and intellectual. But my brain doesn't think and organize that way. I don't think I'm shallow, but my life, thoughts and opinions often seem ordinary and mundane.

I guess we're going to finish the rest of my brother, Matthew's birthday... Even though it was back in October...

Then I think I'm going to start writing again. I miss it, and even though I don't have a solid plot, I'm just going to write and write and deal with the jumble of words later. Maybe I can have an adventure by living vicariously through the characters I write about....

Smiles...

Okay, so I admit that it's pretty much ridiculous that I'm so cold that I am now sitting here, with socks, slippers, long sleeved shirt, blanket, a hot cup of tea, plus my winter coat, since my sweatshirt is in the dryer... I'd be wearing gloves too, but then I can't use the touchpad on my laptop. It's 30 degrees outside and 65 in here.

Like I said... Ridiculous... Even more so in the fact that I want snow ooooh so very much!

Today Jessica came home from Drake and there was much rejoicing! She stopped by briefly on her way to her dentist and then we hung out for the rest of the day afterwards! It was really awesome and I've missed her to no end! I helped her unpack and then we redecorated this doll-house-thing she has in her room, getting it all ready for Christmas! Then we took about 15 pictures of the two of us doing weird and silly things... Yeah... Those will probably end up on Facebook soon... Then we met up with Julia at the theatre in town and saw the movie "Flicka". Soooooo good.... A definate "girly" movie... It's a different kind of chick-flick, so I was okay with it. No romance in the main character. Lots of awesome horses though. Excellent! :-) I must admit, Jessica, Julia and I were all crying at the end... Heh... Yeah, it was a girly movie.

Then I went back with Jessica to her house, intending to catch the 2nd half of the Doctor Who episode I watched while I was dogsitting, but alas, I thought it was on at 10 pm, however, in reality it was on at 9.... Oh well.

And now I'm here. In my winter coat. And I just saved tons and tons of icons off of livejoural. It's kind of addiciting...

It's nice that life seems okay sometimes.

Something inspiring...

"What is the worth of anything we do?"

"The worth is in the act. Your worth halts when you surrender the will to change and experience life. But options are before you; chose one and dedicate yourself to it. The deeds will give you new hope and purpose."

"But what can I do?"

"The only true guide is your heart. Nothing less than its supreme desire can help you."

-Eragon, by Christopher Paolini p. 92

20 things

A couple of my friends have done this, and I guess I felt like jumping on the bandwagon... This is in no particular order:

1. There are times when you REALLY frustrate me, but those are usually few and far between. I think you're fun and smart, and you make me think. It makes me sad when I see that you are struggling.

2. I'm glad we're friends, but sometimes you're a bit hypocrytical and that irks me, although I doubt I'll really confront you about it. Some of the moments we've shared make me warm and happy inside, and I thank-you for that.

3. Every conversation I've had with you, whether in person, or over AOL or even Facebooking back and forth makes me really happy, (and a little sad I'm at Wartburg.) I'm glad I've met you. :-) I think you're fun, and I like making you laugh!

4. You have achieved what I pined for in high school. Don't worry, I'm not jealous---I never was. It's just a matter of me waiting for my turn someday. And the fact that you are so inclusive makes me joyous. You're a good friend, and I miss you.

5. I miss the little quirks we developed together last year! I need to hang out with you more! I like talking about girly-ish things with you!

6. I wish you weren't so moody... But you're fun to be around, and I like being geeky with you.

7. You are quirky and eccentric and I love you for it! Thanks for keeping after me, to make sure I'm doing okay... And I feel honored that you feel okay coming to me for help! I'm sorry we didn't get to hang out a lot during this semester... I feel like I kind of ditched you... I'm sorry... I'll try and do better!

8. I honestly think you have one of the most infectious laughs I've ever heard. It's nice to have someone who enjoys getting up, going out and doing something. You slowly seem to be telling me more and more about your life outside of school... You also have some qualities that I admire. Thanks for being there.

9. I don't know what I would do without you... I don't even know where to begin... Despite the fact that you don't go to Wartburg, and we don't see each other hardly enough, and we're both insanely busy at school, I'm glad that we still have remained close. Mucho Piratey Love!

10. Sometimes you do things that I see as a little reckless, but you're fun to be around. Thanks for listening to me when when I need to let off steam, checking up on me to make sure I'm okay and offering your support. I appreciate that a lot!

11. I don't get enough time with you. I hope you come visit me at school!!!. I think we should compare mental characters sometime.

12. You are a good friend and I appreciate the talks we've had. Thanks for listening!

13. You are sometimes very unaware of the subtle things that go on around you, but that's okay. You make me smile a lot and I love laughing and being weird with you! You put up with a lot, and I thank-you for that.

14. You're pretty clueless too, but that's what makes you so funny sometimes.

15. I miss you! Why did you transfer? I mean I know WHY you trasferred, but still... I miss eating dinner with you and talking about random stuff... Like celery and Camp and Gender.

16. If you really think about it, it's kind of weird how we started doing stuff together... I mean not that I'm complaining! We definately have had some adventures, resulting in very quotable phrases... Good times, good times....

17. I don't see you enough! I miss your intelligent wit! I agree with what you had said... We need to geek out to a movie.

18. Part of me wishes something had happened between us, but I suppose it's better that nothing did. I feel like kind of an idiot for getting my hopes up.

19. Sometimes you talk to me online and then go away. This annoys me to no end. Either say you're leaving, or wait to start a conversation with me when you can devote more time to the computer.

20. I miss you, and you're way super far away. I hope everything is going alright! It makes me sad that you are busy and can't be online, but I do understand.

Christmas Dorm 2006!

Okay, so now that I have my own digital camera... I decided to make use of it and take pictures of our awesome Christmas dorm! 120 feet of lights, 72 feet of garland, about 90 different ornaments... :-D

^This is what our dorm looks like when you first walk in. My bed is on the left, and Leah's is on the right.

^This is my roommate's bed... If you can't tell, lime green is her favorite color! Please notice the Wall of Orlando Bloom... I took this picture standing in my closet...

^This the decoration we had around our window... Yay window clings!

^This is my loft... I cleaned it!

^Sarah's desk 2006-07...

^My shelf of knick-knacks.... I brought a lot LESS then last year...

^This is the view from my desk chair.

^This is our awesome $10 fiber-optic christmas tree!

^...We really didn't have a good place to put it, so we put it on top of out 13" TV and covered it with a blanket.... Ted and Jesse said it was a shrine and they pretended to scold us for being pegan.

^Woooooohooo! Gaze at those awesome fiber-optics!

^This is a close-up picture of the white thing that is sitting in the tree.... Not it's not a ghost, no it's not the demenor from last year, it's actually an angel! Someone in choir made it for Leah, and she added it our tree.

^Haha, this is the airfreshener that I bought for our room... Not because our room smelled bad,(although according to Ted or room smells like "girl" ---whatever that means...) But because it alternated between making the room smell like holly and apple cinamon... It's amazing! :-D

^This is our closet... With my awesome Have a Day and Pirates of the Caribbean posters on it...

^This is Moses. He is our door stop and here you can see him hard at work... And he's all dressed up for the Christmas season! Moses started out as a big rock I took from the Boy Scout Camp in Janesville, when we were there for band bonding, back in September. Leah and I decided we wanted a pet, so we bought craft fur and giant googly eyes... :-) The hat came with the treeskirt, but we already had a tree-topper, so we decked Moses out instead!

^Yay for Murphy's Laws!

^This is Leah's fishtank... There are fish in there, I promise... You just can't see them... We have... Some Lemon Tetras, 3 female Betas and some Glow-light Tetras. We did have a snail, named Gary, but he died... Then Leah got a suckerfish... but that died before we could even name it..
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^This is the male Beta Leah has... He's almost 2 years old...


Well! That's were I live! Leah and I are able to make it work quite well!

The Rest of Dr. Black's sarcastic wit...

Okay, so now that finals are over, and I have finshed my History of Science class, here are the rest of the quotes said by Dr. Black that I was able to write down. The first half of quotes can be found HERE.

Dr. Black: People thought the moon was made of cheese AFTER Galileo.
Student: They had cheese?
Dr. B.: YES! They had cheese! Cheese had already been invented--no I won't put it in the lecture... It was invented some time----I don't want to talk about it anymore!. -Dr. Black discussing Galileo's observations about the moon.

"Believe it or not, Galileo didn't have flashlights." -Dr. B discussing trying to measure light.

"There is going to be a town here---and we're going to call it---Steve." -Dr. B. talking about the Rail Roads in America.

"There was a tulip mania---the Dutch love tulips---it was like 'tulip-a-looza'!"-Dr. B. talking about enchange rates.

"This is what I call the 'Bigger Idiot Theory'- you buy something and then go find a bigger idiot to pay you more for it." -Dr. B. on inflation.

"Your mind is kind of like---a little guy---driving your body around." -Dr. B. discussing the different views on how the brain and body relate and interact with eachother.

"It looks like Packman throwwing up!" -Rachel V. after Dr. Black drew a picture of a spermatzoa on the chalk board. We were gonna talk about "the origin of species".

"Mary switched everyone back to Catholosism---she had 1000 people burned for being Prodistant. That's why they called her 'Bloody Mary'. She didn't last very long. Her sister, Elizabeth switched everything BACK to Prodestantism. This confused people." -Dr. B on British History.

"[Isaac Newton] died penniless and insane--- actually he was rich, but he was insane. He was foaming at the mouth and biting people." -Dr. B. summing up Newton's life.

"When people call me Danny I like to point out that the last person to call me that was my Grandmother and she's dead." -Dr. (Daniel) B. before class banter.

"Remember Judas Iscariot? Well, things didn't turn out so well for him..." -Dr. B. discussing religious implications.

"Okay, what I think Dewy was talking about was...... Poptarts.... Mmmm... They're the food of the gods..." -Dr. B. eating a poptart before class as we got ready to talk about the Dewy Decimal System.

"The nice things about wood is that it litterally grows on trees." -Dr. B. and the use of energy.

"I want to marry him!!! I want to marry him and have little Scottish babies!!! With diapers made from tartans! That would be soooo cute!!!" -Rachel V. discussing the hottness that is David Tennant!

"If you're not good, you're not gonna get cake. I know you're not gonna get cake, but still. If you're not good, you're not gonna get cake." -Dr. B. before class banter.

"What--you mock me? I will not be mocked! ...But if you keep it up I guess there's nothing I can do about it..." Dr. B. before class banter.

"Words have gender. People have sex." -Dr. B. talking about pronouns during a discussion about the origins of man.

"All living things die? ...So all we have to do is look for dead things and ask them what they were?" -Dr. B. asking us what defines life and species.

"I'll take 'Obscure Greek Philosophers for 200,' please Alex." -Dr. B. talking about Aristotle.

"Ah-ha! They MULTIPLY! Well, except for those that divide... Like single celled organisms." -Dr. B. discussing what defines life.

"Wow... It's like life according to Bugs Bunny." -Dr. B. during class banter.

"All mules are sterile. There are no mommy mules." -Dr. Black discussing animal reproduction within species.

"How do we find out if we're members of the same species? Right, we produce fertile offspring... I guess we'll have a lab." -Dr. B. on reproduction. (He was joking, just FYI... We did not have a lab exploring this particular topic.)

"Have you ever played the electronic game "20 Questions"? It's so crazy! It's asks you all these obscure questions and then it goes booooop and gets the answer... Yet another example of how I can spend $10 and buy something smarter then me." -Dr. B. before class banter.

"People believed Malthus---it looked scientific... He had formulas and graphs and everything!" -Dr. B. discussing Malthus's Population Theory.

"It's like drugs for girls! ...I mean, drugs are for all people, but cookie dough is like drugs for girls!" -Rachel V. talking about sharing a cookie dough log.

"Back in the 90's the internet was occupied by real nerds--because they were the only ones who knew that it exsisted." -Dr. B. and the progression of current technology.

"Did you know that there was an organization on the internet for the preservation of gravity? 'We're running out of gravity! You pick up a weight and you use up gravity--soon we'll all float away! Did you know that the Apollo moon launch used up more gravity then the entire 14th century?" -Dr. B. making fun of the gravity organization.

"As promised, I'll now do the entire 20th Century in five minutes." -Dr. B. running out of class time.

"Research has proven that research works." -Dr. B. during class banter.

Finals Day 1

This is one of those days where I get through it by taking it one hour at a time.

"Hands are shaking cold, these hands are meant to hold..."

I know I'm not, but I feel unloved. I think it's called being lonely.




...And single




Dear God,

When will I get to have a turn at being in love? Why am I so impatient? Why is being single so hard for me?

In my opinion I think this chapter of my life is pretty boring. I want to read ahead and make sure there's something written that might lead to a happy ending....

...But I can't do that... So yet again I get to humble myself and let you drive the rusty Radio-flyer Wagon of my life. Maybe you can get it through the gravel and mud I'm plowwing through right now.

Love,

Me

I have survived!

A glass of orange juice, Flintstone vitamins, 3 hugs and good friends evidentually do wonders for a cold. A big thanks to Ted, Duane and Nathan. :-)

I am ready to study... After I wake up, that is.

I'll take Hell Week for $1000, please Alex

This cough is getting worse... I've lost count of how many people have asked me if I'm feeling okay, if I'm getting better, said they hoped I would get better soon or commented on how pale I look. This cold sucks.

I was up til 2 am last night. Working on my music theory composition until security kicked us out of the FAC at 1:30. I didn't sleep very well since I was coughing all night. My alarm went off at 6:45 am and I got out of bed a half hour later. I went to the FAC printed my composition and analyzed the chords in class until it was my turn to perform it. I like my piece... But I know I'm going to get points taken away since I was unable to work a Neopolitan Six chord in the piece. I ran out of time. I got the modulation to and back and mode mixutre... But not the N6... *sigh*

I e-mailed the professor of my 10:45 class and apologized for my absence and I took a nap. I feel functional now.

I survived my piano lesson.

This is my Finals Schedule:

Monday December 11:

8:30-10:30 am—History of Science Final

10:26 am—Piano Basic Skills Proficiency Test

12:07 pm— Flute Jury

1:30-3:30 am—Music Theory III Final


Tuesday December 12:

11:30 am-1:30 pm—Lifespan Human Development

6:30-8:30 pm— IS 201 American Sign Language


I am done with all my finals Tuesday night. I plan on staying on campus until Friday... Mainly just to enjoy being a bum and to take advantage of my bored plan. Plus, no one at home will be back from break either and everyone here is staying through Friday.

Ted's mom sent him Superman Returns in the mail and Jesse found someone on their floor who has the Indiana Jones movies. I shall probably watch those next week too.

I want to go to the $1 Movie Knight.... I want to see Deja Vu or Casino Royale... But the movies aren't until 11:30 at night. I need to sleep.... I'm sick.... But I want to go...... And I know I posed the idea on Sunday when we went to Perkins... But now I know I shouldn't go... Gah! It's times like this that I hate being in charge of myself! It's so much easier to get mad at a parent when they tell you no. :-( I've gotten really good at trying to justify things that I want to do, versus things that I need to do.... Sleep. No movie knight. Sleep. And I can't let myself try and justify going. I have a million more things to do! (Don't let me go! I can't! Don't let me try and talk myself into it!)

I don't want to grow up anymore.


In other news: Pirates of the Caribbean III: At Worlds End comes out in theatres May 25th 2007. This makes me very very very happy. I just can't express it very well since I'm sick. A big thank-you to Rachel D. for informing me of this! *hugs*

Breakdown-ish-type things

So this morning at 2 am I had, what I'd like to call an "Epiphany of DOOM".

Woodwind Juries are only on Monday. I still have a cold, and this cough is getting worse. I. Am. Not. Ready.

I have a composition due tomorrow in Music Theory. I have piano seminar tonight. I need to go to a butt-load of recitals for credit....

I have FINALS next week!!!!

WHY did I take a nap yesterday????? I DON'T HAVE TIME! WHAT WAS I THINKING?!

I hate realizing that I can't have fun anymore. If you need me, I will be living in the FAC or the Library the rest of the week.

My life is not my own....

I think my brain is imploding. I just want to curl up and make this all go away.

"Little did she know..."

I need a place where I can go,
Where I can whisper what I know,
Where I can whisper who I like
And where I go to see them.

I need a place where I can hide,
Where no one sees my life inside,
Where I can make my plans, and write them down
So I can read them.

A place where I can bid my heart be still
And it will mind me.
A place where I can go when I am lost,
And there I'll find me.

I need a place to spend the day,
Where no one says to go or stay,
Where I can take my pen and draw
The girl I mean to be.

~The Girl I Mean to Be, from The Secret Garden

I was listening to this soundtrack and this song came up... And even though I've always liked it, I was impressed how closely the lyrics fit me right now....

I got to talk to my mom today, which was good. We talked about my college life--what I struggle with and why certain things are difficult for me. I haven't had a good talk with her for a while, so it was much needed.

Oh, yeah... And I have a cold.... It started out as a really bad sore throat on Tuesday, and didn't really start to go away until Thursday. I went to the doctor on Wednesday so now I'm on antibiotics, but if this cold is viral, there's nothing they can do. Now, the sore throat is gone but it's replaced with bad congestion and a cough.... It gets worse at night and I wake up feeling like I inhaled a couple bricks because my chest feels so heavy with gunk. The doctor said I should be careful so that the sore throat doesn't become strep, but now I think I should worry about bronchitis.

I finally practiced my flute today. The last time I had practiced was Monday... BAD!!! I really don't like this cold.... On Tuesday playing in band was so difficult... I faked a lot, but by the end, according to others around me I was really pale... I felt a little tired, but I didn't pass out or anything.

I need to write out my finals schedule so I can sign up for my music juires.... Not cool, not cool....

Anyways... Back to the song... I feel like I should just warn you that this will probably be contradictory....

I'm really strugging with aspects of my personality that conflict with that of other peoples... And trying to deal with my inner competition for attention. I don't like not being in control, and I don't like being told what to do. I have a dominant personality... I know I do.... Last year I became really passive aggressive, but that seems to be fading out this year as I still struggle inwardly with not getting my way all the time... Not to mention trying to mentally check myself so that I'm not bossy to the extreme...

I've also come to realize that I am very independant... I'm not afriad to do things by myself or on my own. That doesn't mean I prefer to do things on my own, but I can. But then, on the otherhand, I have this need for human interaction and contact. I think part of it has derived from the group of people I've come to hang out with--we all have become pretty comfortable with each other so personal space has been greatly reduced. Even if it's just all of us just sitting cross-legged on the futon, knee to knee, I enjoy the closeness, and I miss it when I'm not there. The poking/tickling/wrestling--it's like having a bunch of older brothers... Not to mention the hugs... Those are nice too. :-)

But then I am also very stubborn. Which can be both good... and bad. I usually don't have a problem sticking up for myself, but then if it's something I just don't want to do, I can be a rather pig-headed.

I've also been thinking about my show of emotion... (I'm talking about normal show of emotion... Not PMS-induced show of emotion.) I mean.... I think I'm pretty even-tempered... Yes there are things that bother me, yes things make me mad, but it takes an awful LOT of things to give me reason to stay mad/upset. And I vent a lot when I blog... That helps a lot too... And, well, I don't like being sad/depressed/upset/mad... Yes, I know, who does, but, to quote a favorite movie "I dearly love to laugh."

...But then there's the part of me that gets bottled up---some of it gets poured into this impartial space... But still.... One of the reasons I miss Jessica is that I feel completely at ease with talking with her, and our silences aren't awkward. We go on walks and drives and just vent to each other. And I feel comfortable telling her when I've had a completely crummy day... So, I guess in the end it's my own fault for being shy and insecure and not asking someone if they would go on a walk with me when I'm having a rough time....

Then there's feeling like I have to compete for attention is another aspect of my character that bothers me... Part of it derives from my dominant personality, and the other from being the oldest of 6 children. I suppose being homeschooled plays a factor too, since I haven't felt the need to compete for attention at this level before. (And attention is addicting I would like to add.) I'm still trying to square with being single, but part of me inside doesn't want to get pushed to the back burner when prettier, smarter, more agressive girls are around. I'm trying really hard not to be nasty/sarcastic. I really am.

"Who would want a dreamer?"

-It all boils down to that really. That 5 word line. Sure I talk about semi-normal things and stuff... But there's always an internal dialogue going on in my head. Sometimes it's comments to add to the conversation at the time, maybe it's something funny (or clever if I'm lucky) or a story to pass the time. But sometimes I worry that I get myself so caught up in what I want, what I think I'm looking for, that I might be missing something important. *sigh* I don't know.

Alas! This is life...

I'm really not sad or depressed or upset right now... Just introspective... And trying to figure out myself.

I need to make an adventure cloak... Maybe that will help with the lack of super-pillow-fort building....

I don't know what chapter I'm on in my life right now other then it's something like: (told in 3rd person omniscient, read by the voice of Emma Thompson)

"As the first semester of her second year at Wartburg College began to draw to a close, Sarah started to wonder which was more likely to happen--recovering from her cold and passing her music jury, or winning the lottery.

"Don't be silly. She thought to herself. You could still pass. Just start praying. Really hard. And don't put off your practicing anymore---but perhaps you should buy a lottery ticket just in case..."

[Little did she know...]

I wish my life were a romantic comedy.

996

I got a lot of hugs today. :-) I think it was a new record.

Duane taught me how to waltz tonight, and at Ballroom Dancing Club I learned the guy part of the Tango... And then I learned the girl part, but I haven't gotten that down just yet.

In other news I am definately getting a cold and I am going to take ibuprofen for it and go to bed.

Break is over... What?

So break has gone by... I'm gonna be heading back to the 'Burg in about two hours... Most of it was fun and good, but it definately didn't go as I planned...

I want to blame Perkins, but really, really truly there was nothing I could do about anything. The way break played out was just that... And there's nothing I can do about it. :-/

...I think the worst part was going to Happy Feet with Jessica (and Suzy and her brother and Jessica's mom) which ended up being the ONLY time I got to see her... And since she is my very best friend, this is very sad. You can't really do some hard-core catching-up on life events when you're in a group of people. :-P

I feel like I have a million things to do, but not enough time to do them. I hate that my mental set is "Maybe if I ingore it, it'll go away..."

I got a digital camera, which I am really excited about! Now I just need a bigger memory card.

Tonight Leah and I are decorating our room for Christmas... That shoud help my mood, seeing as I've looking forward to it for about a week. :-)

A little thing that makes me smile...

Nothing makes me happier then to have a friend or a group of friends who seek out my company so they can spent time with me.

...This includes random messages left for me on AOL/MSN/Facebook saying things like "I miss you"...

Everyone likes to know they have some value in other people's lives.

*warm fuzzies*

Happy Thanksgiving!

First of all... I FINISHED MY PSYCHOLOGY PAPER! AHHHHHH!!!!! I worked on it alllllll last night after I got home from Happy Feet, and I worked on it alllllll today... Whew! I'm glad it's done!

Second, I hope everyone is having a nice Thanksgiving and a great break!

Dinner here was awesome... Mashed potatoes, turkey, gravy, corn... the works.... Although it seemed to take forever for dinner to be ready, so when we finally DID sit down to eat, I got in trouble for saying grace faster then everyone else... Because I was so hungry I just wanted to EAT! After 2 servings of turkey, corn, mashed potatoes and gravy, and a piece of pumpkin pie I took a nice nap... Definately turkey induced. :-)

At dinner mom asked us what we were thankful and I jokingly said that I was thankful that dinner was finally cooked, and Stephen added in all seriousness and excitement that he was thankful for all the birthdays in the world. It was cute! :-D

But truthfully, I am thankful for a lot of things... My family, and the fact that I know they love me and support me, and for my friends and all the joy and hilarity they bring to my crazy life, as well as all the crap they put up with from me... I'm thankful I am able to go to school and that I have clothes and my own computer and plenty of food to eat... And hugs. Hugs are amazing and I am very thankful for hugs. *warm fuzzies*

Now I'm eating more turkey and mashed potatoes with gravy and corn.... Mmmmm.... :-)

Recap...

Okay, so I had two tests today... One in music theory and one in psychology... Which kind of sucked, but I've actually been in a pretty good mood, so that helps. :-) Last night's tickle-fight played a big part in that I think... All those endorphins and all... :-)

So, Saturday night was the big spaghetti dinner Leah and I had planned for our group. It went well, and a good time was had by all... While cooking we established that:

You do not boil French bread, however you CAN broil it... Provided you have a pan.

Spaghetti noodles stick to things when they're done. Like ceilings. However, for future reference, don't let it dry there. It becomes hard to remove.

No matter WHAT a person is wearing, if you're pouring something it WILL splatter.

Don't look away when you are pouring something. Not even if it's splattering... You will miss and pour everything on the counter.

A box of spaghetti that makes 16 servings is a lot of spaghetti.

It's hard to speak cohearantly with a bunch of Angel Food Cake in your mouth. (Okay, so I basically established this one... As I was the only one stuffing my face and then trying to continue conversations...)

Evidentially salt makes water boil faster.

The plural of spaghetti is spaghetti. Not spaghetties.

Soap bubbles are fun!

Spraying your roommate with water is even more fun!

>:-D

...Yeah, stuff like that...

We ate dinner in a classroom that was next to the kitchen area... The guys set up the computer and projector so play a slideshow of travel pictures they found on the internet... But we got bored with that eventually, so we watched Homestarrunner Cartoons and stuff. Although I think the best part was comnig across one of those "magic eye" pictures during a Google Image search that we were doing.... We were all sitting there, looking at the projector screen, and Nathan and Jesse stand up to get a better look... Jesse walks to the computer screen, but Nathan stands there staring at the picture on the projecter... With his shadow taking up the middle of the picture... And you can see on his face "Gee, I can't see the picture... I must not be close enough." So he steps closer and his shadow gets bigger which finally causes him to realize that trying to see the hidden image on a projector screen was not the way to go. And I don't know why, but I found it hilarious... Like... I was laughing so hard after seeing this I started crying and all that jazz... Wow... I guess you had to be there, but it was hilarious!

After dinner Ted, Duane, Jesse and I went and saw Stranger Then Fiction, which was amusing, although not as funny as I'd hoped. After that we watched The Core back in the guy's room.

Sunday... Went to church... Then ate at Hardee's with the guys... Worked on a paper... Ate dinner in the Den with the guys and Devon who was at Wartburg for a scholarship day... Then I went and studied in Ted and Jesse's room because I was tired of my own dorm, having been in there all day by myself, since Leah was with Travis. So I studied and watched the 4th Harry Potter movie on HBO... Then we watched Pirates of the Caribbean Dead Man's Chest... And no, it's not out on DVD yet.... Mwahaha... :-) After that Ted channel surfed and we watched the end of Venture Brothers. Then Ted, Duane and I got in a pretty big tickle fight, which was what the post before this was about...

...THAT was a good time! :-D It started out with Ted and Duane ganging up on me, since I am very ticklish, but we discovered that we were all pretty ticklish... We even got Jesse in on it, for a little while... haha! Although I must interject that we were all pretty tired and silly, so that probably played a factor in how ticklish the guys were... I'm just ticklish all the time... :-P



Yep... So that's what has been going on for a while.. Oh! My Wishbone Facebook group ("No I Haven't Read that Great Litterary Classic--But I've seen the Wishbone") broke 10,000 members last week and s currently almost up to 11,000! How cool is that??? :-)

Laughter is good...

*sigh* Tickle-fights make me feel better about life. Especially when I learn where I can fight back. Being sleepy and massively giggly with a group of friends (especially guy friends) is a good feeling. :-D

Fighting moodiness...

I hate that I'm so possesive.

I reek of jealousy.


I am such a piece of work, it's not even funny.

998...

Duane and Ted have begun a mission to give me 1000 hugs. They kicked it off tonight by giving me two bone-crushing sandwich hugs. One on the way to Wal-Mart and one in the Wal-Mart check-out line. They are amazing, and I feel a lot better toninght. :-)

In need of a quiet place to think...

No more chick-flicks for me. They ruin my life. From now on it's action-adventure all the way. War and fighting and blood. I can't deal with this mood. If I had a Rambo movie, I would watch it.

I was doing fine today... Last night obviously not so much. I ended up getting really homesick after talking to Duane. All through the day I was okay. Band was amazing.... I worked really hard and it felt good. I love the piece we're playing! :-)

Then I had dinner with Ted, Jesse, Duane, Jackie and Jenna. Ted had to leave early... And well, Jenna and I had words that set me back into this stupid mood.

I'm not really jealous of anything in the group, per se. I'm just fed up with "life."

I read through my Master List tonight and some of the stuff has already changed. Good greif. What was I thinking? My life is impossible.

What REALLY started this was my stupid Lifespan Human Development Class. We are discussing Erikson's "Intamacy vs. Isolation" theory and how friendships develop and the difference between "friendships" and "romantic relationships."

I don't know what to think. I don't know how much of this is physical exhaustion and how much of this is my brain just being messed up.

I want someone to hold my hand.
To pick my brain and ask me why.
To suprise me.
Hold me.
Tell me things are going to be okay.

Okay, so I am jealous of everyone I see who actually is in a relationship. And I KNOW nothing is perfect, but please don't tell me I'm better off single. I hear that enough.

Evidentially there is someone out there for me, but golly, it doesn't seem like he's at Wartburg... So what do I do now?

I need a fort of pillows and blankets where I can just hide, all snuggly and safe.

I want to walk to the bridge over the river, and sit on a park bench. And cry. But it's midnight and I'm not going alone. And I'm too shy to ask someone to go with me. And as far as I can tell, everyone is busy. Leah's in bed, Rachel D. is doing homework, and is already swamped, Ted has two tests tomorrow, Duane and Jesse both have to get up early. Jill isn't online, Emily is also swamped, Julia doesn't go to school here anymore, Jessica, Mike and Laura are at Drake, Rachel V. is probably in bed, Amanda N. is "away" on AOL, Amanda M. is at Bethel, and Scott is at ISU. (Oh, and don't forget that most guys find a girl crying very awkward anyway.)

Leah commented earlier tonight on my being quiet and I told her I wished I had a boyfriend, which was the best way I could describe what I'm feeling. She just rolled her eyes made a "pish" noise.--Yes, I talk about it a lot because it's a big deal to me. She doesn't have anything to worry about. She already has a steady boyfriend.

It would seem that I need chocolate, but I don't feel like it. Shocking I know, but right now this has progressed farther then chocolate.

We even did hugs today in band and that didn't help.

I was just home and I was in such a hurry to get back to campus, and now I miss it. Thanksgiving is soon... I just have to hold out...

Why am I even crying about this???? It's ridiculous! WHY is this so HARD???


"The fairy stories come harder now,
But she fights to keep them close.
When the world feels big and frightening
They're what she knows the most.

In those dreams of long ago,
She finds a safe retreat.
Remembering battling a dragon,
Helps her cope with life's defeats."

Edward got pushed to the back burner as school began, but he's been brought back to the front. I take this reality and substitute my own. Edward is someone to think about at least, even if he really is only a fictional characer.

I am so pathetic... And I still stand by the fact that you don't get enough hugs at college.

Elphie...

Life has made me grumpy.

Why do I get jealous when my guy friends hang out with other girls? Why do I struggle so much with this? WHY do I have such a bird-dog personality? Or a one-track mind... Whatever you want to call it.

HOW is it some people manage to get significant others and not me?

What's wrong with me?

WHY can't I be happy being single?

Ted gives me hugs and tickles me and teases me and calls me "hun" but it's all superfluous. Pseudo-flirting. We're friends, I KNOW that's just how he is. A gigantic flirt. I'm not letting myself be led on. I jush wish for once, that I had someone to like, who was interested in me as well.

I made a 5-finger weave bracelet tonight. 3 different colors of green, one black and one pink. Because "pink goes good with green."

"Ev'ry so often we long to steal
To the land of what-might-have-been
But that doesn't soften the ache we feel
When reality sets back in..."

That is my life.

Home again

So I'm home for a night... Nothing too exciting...

Well, except for the fact that I'm tired and my pajamas aren't dry and I don't want to sleep in my jeans, so I gave up and put on damp pajamas. :-P

Oh and my shoulder hurts for some reason.

I went shopping tonight and spent too much money. :-D I bought two new pairs of jeans which I DESPARATELY needed... And I bought 2 camisols, one white and one red. The white is for a rose colored short-sleeved V-neck sweater, and the red one is to go under a black, long-sleeved sweater with those buttons that go half-way down the front. I also bought a silk scarf. It has different colored polka-dots on it. :-) Oh! And awesome khaki courdory pants. And socks. But they are normal socks. I still need another belt.

There are six blankets on my bed in the basement/dungeon. 3 of them are folded in half. That makes 9 layers of blankets! YES! :-D

Tomorrow, when I get back from church I will make Dutch Letters to take back to Wartburg.

Whoa...

Evidentially drinking two glasses of Mountain Dew at lunch and then eating a candy cane right before taking a nap results in some very crazy, bizzarely awesome dreams...

Sleepy-ish

I don't know what to think about life... Other then the fact that I'm single and that's not too cool... But there's nothing I can really do about it right now.

I will state that I do like having guy friends.

FYI, I will be home this Saturday and Sunday, although briefly.

I'm gonna go to bed.

Bonfire Night

Remember, remember the fifth of November,
Gunpowder, treason and plot,
I see no reason why gunpowder treason
Should ever be forgot.
Guy Fawkes, Guy Fawkes,
'Twas his intent
To blow up the King and the Parliament.
Three score barrels of powder below,
Poor old England to overthrow:
By God's providence he was catch'd
With a dark lantern and burning match.
Holloa boys, holloa boys, make the bells ring.
Holloa boys, holloa boys, God save the King!
Hip hip hoorah!

I can't find the right formula to solve for X in the math problem that is my life...

Dear God,

My life sucks right now, and there's nothing I can do.


Love,
Me


And I'm running out of kleenexes.

...

Yes, Rachel D. I think it was a little overboard. I'm sorry it seemed like I blew you off. I honestly didn't mean to. I have a million other things going on in my life, and I'm not perfect. I'm sorry I don't have my work schedule perfectly memorized. I'm sorry my agenda is often different from yours. Yes, I read your post last night and I wanted to respond but my roommate wouldn't let me. And for good reason. Because it pretty much was the icing on the cake of a really frustating night. That post moved me from frustration to anger. The whole timing of that was brilliant...An incredably awkward dinner with a certain important someone, followed 5 hours of music theory homework that would have resulted in tears had I not become angry.

Thank-you for tying to hang out with me. I'm sorry I'm so busy, and that you feel like you have to compete for my attention. I don't know when I'll be free next. I have two tests on Monday, juries are coming up, as well as piano seminar, plus two band concerts.

I haven't even unpacked from fall break yet! I'm living out of a suitecase in my own dorm.

And I did ask if you wanted to join me for dinner at 6, but you said no, because you were eating with Melisssa. And you said that was okay for me to eat at 6 instead. So I left it at that. Obviously, it really wasn't okay.

This is gonna sound mean, but gosh darn it! This isn't high school! There ARE other people for you to do things with other then just ME. Yes, it makes me happy that you want to hang out with me and do things with me! That's AWEOSME. But it gets hard for me to juggle all the stuff I have going on when I have people clamoring for my free time. Right now it seems like my attention/time is going to be on a first come first serve basis.

I know that's harsh... and I'd better stop before I go any further... I so totally late for work...


_______________

I am bound and determind to have a good time tonight.

Initiative

I got tired of waiting for life to happen, so I did something about it.

*heavy sigh*

First of all, here's a quote from History of Science that I forgot.

"I had a student who figured out how to fill in the scantron bubbles so that I would have to corrent it by hand... Yeah, he's no longer living...."- Dr. B before our second exam.

Second of all, I'm an idiot. My 2nd seven week class-- my cello/bass methods started LAST Monday! Ah! I've missed 3 classes! So I talked to the teacher and I'm just gonna do it some other time, since she recommends taking violin/viola first. EXCEPT the last day to drop 2nd seven week classes was the 30th! AHHH!

So yeah, I don't know what I'm gonna do....

Rachel and I had a discussion over the guys in my life and what could be going on... Heh, frankly I have no idea. Ted calls me "Hun" over msn sometimes, (which I don't mind) and there are other things, but I freaking don't know. Calling me "Hun" could very well just be a typing shortcut. I'm so over analytical... It's pathetic.

History of Science

Because I talked about it... kind of a lot while I was at Bethel, I have decided to go through my History of Science notes, and post the quotes I find... Some of them are from me, writing to Rachel, who sits next to me, but most are from my professor.

"Guns don't kill people, people kill people... And so do monkeys--if they've got a gun." -me quoting Eddie Izzard.

"Mesopotamia means 'the land between two rivers.' This also applies to Iowa... Which they were going to call Mesopotamia, but it was already taken." -Dr. B talking about Pristine Civilizations.

"The Pyramids were just the result of Pharaohs trying to one-up each other. [class laughs] No really! They're a giant display of manliness! Compare that to Jack Ohle--'Look how big MY PE center is, compared to YOURS'--oops was that out loud?" -Dr. B discussing Egypt, obviously.

"5000 years ago, astronauts from Mars came-- they enslaved the neolithic people and gave them civilization." -Dr. B on the progression of tools throughout the early civilizations.

After telling us the story of Achilles and the Turtle:
"Common sense, common experience, people CAN catch turtles."

After a student decided to argue the point:
"Okay, you be Achilles---[dejectedly] I'm a turtle."

Student: Am I supposed to be moving?
Dr. B: Yes! You're Achilles! Look! [points to the running stick figure drawn on the blackboard] You've got speed lines and everything!"

"I've got snot... Does anyone have a Kleenex?" -Dr. B pausing one day in the middle of his lecture.

"So I'm standing on the North Pole... I'm Santa and it's the 1st day of winter and I'm getting nervous because Christmas is only 3 days away and the elves are way behind... So I'm yelling at them... And I'm standing here... How long is the day?' -Dr. B in lab discussing the winter solstice.

"I <3 [heart] my dog."
"I <3- [spayed] my dog" -Dr. B, talking about how pictures slowly changed into words over time.

"If you have a broken heart, you need to see a cardiologist." -Dr. B talking about the different phrases that surround the word love and heart.

"Pluto is out there saying 'Fine! I don't want to be in your crappy solar system anyway!'." -Dr. B, before class banter.

"How would I make a 'seven-a-gon'?"-Dr. B and Greek geometry.

"If the reformation didn't occur by Martin Luther--there is evidence that it would have happened eventually--just differently. This would be a 'Zwinkly College' and you'd have to go to 'Zwinkly Hall' to pay your bill." -Dr. B on the reformation. At Wartburg, (which is affiliated with the ELCA) Luther Hall is where the Controller's office is located. Just FYI.

"I hear voices in my head and they tell me to do bad things... Ooops! Was that out loud?" -Dr. B, before class banter.

"You're supposed to get at LEAST get 50% on my exams without studying... That's just how they're designed. What frightens me is when people get 40% on my exams--because that means I've damaged them." -Dr. B explaining how his exams work.

"True or False: If mares eat oats and does eat oats, little lambs eat ivy." -Question #169 on the first exam.

"Do I seem like I'm in a bad mood? Maybe I am." -Dr. B, before class banter.

"I've got snot... Does anyone have a Kleenex?" -Dr. B interrupting his own lecture.

"Remember Socrates? Well this was his high school graduating picture." Dr. B narrating his powerpoint.

"Do your bowels move? How much do they move?" -Dr. B talking about what medieval physicians REALLY did. (They dealt with laxatives.)

"Surgeons thought there was a little troll inside you... They'd cut you open and let it out." -Dr. B on medieval surgeons.

"Aristotle's son got all his father's works together and called it... I don't know... 'Aristotle's Greatest Hits.'" -Dr. B about the early medieval people rediscovering the Greeks.

"No, no, no! It's premature evacuation!" -Dr. B when everyone started to get ready to leave waaay before class was over.

"My spider sense is tingling..." -Dr. B, before class banter.

"People like me are really high strung... But you just don't realize it until I'm up on top of the chapel roof with a high powered rifle... Next thing you know there's a blurry picture of me on the front page of the newspaper." -Dr. B after someone sneezed really loud and a couple people jumped. (He was JOKING.)

"Yeah... He's sitting on midgets." -Dr. B referring to this picture.

"No one was like 'Yay the Renaissance is over! We've met our quota!' There was no 'End of Renaissance Day.'" -Dr. B and the progression of time.

"At the age of 45 Galileo achieved fame and immortality... Well fame at least, because he died in 1642." -Dr. B on the achievements of Galileo.


That's all I have in my notes so far! I hope you guys found them amusing!

*screams of joy*

I just bought tickets for Leah, Jessica and I to go see The Light in the Piazza in January! :-D

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

In other news, I miss the awesome people at Bethel more then I can tell. :-(

More later, folks!

Yay Break!

Happy Birthday Matthew! I hope your day is amazing! I have an e-card picked out for you but the internet at Bethel is not letting me send it... So it will be a little late... But Happy Birthday again! :-D *hugs*

So, I'm here at Bethel, havin' a good time... Leah and I got here in one piece, although it was definately an adventure... Isaac let us play Guitar Hero, which I'm not very good at, but it's still way fun... And Chris let me burn his new Weird Al CD. :-) My iTunes is up to 2,330 songs!

Last night Luke, Isaac, Chris, Jon, Amanda and I went and saw The Prestige... It was awesome... Yet again! :-) It was fun discussing the movie afterwards... And talking about alternate endings.

Everyone seemed to like the cookies I made! :-D

Sometime this weekend I'm going to learn how to play DDR. :-)

Later tonight, we should go to Perkins.

Ack!

Wow.... long time no post... Again... Sorry!

I'm home for the night... It's fall break! YAY! Tomorrow Leah and I head up to the Twin Cities... She's going to visit her boyfriend, and I am going to Bethel! w00t! :-D (We should go see The Prestige... *hint-hint*)

Tonight I made double chocolate chip cookies... It was quite interesting, and very sad that I was all alone in the making of them... Neither Jessica or Julia was here to help with the mayhem... :-(

I got a 91% on my last psychology test! Huzzah!

We got new band uniforms and the dress is actually kind of classy... :-) I might someday get to wear it other then for band... Sweet!

Mom got tickets for Mary, my dad and I to go see The Phantom of the Opera in Des Moines in Feburary!!! :-D I am really excited! It's one of my favorite stories... The movie made me cry when I first saw it.

Ted is a general-overall flirt, and sometimes it confuses me, but the attention is nice. Last night I ended up involuntarily kneeing him in the chin when he was alternating between ticking me and tickling Leah.

My life is boring. Lots of people around me are either in relationships or starting one. Why is it that I'm so impatient? :-(

Bleh.

Oh, and I'll get pictures up eventually... geez! I just got done with midterms!

Yay weekend!

So I got my new glasses in the mail today! :-) I like them, and it's nice to be able to see again, with my contacts out, while I do the required eyedrops for my stupid pink eye.

I'm listening to the soundtrack to the Broadway show A Christmas Carol... It's so happy! :-)

Ted, Jesse, Nathan, and I... and probably Leah, are going to see The Prestige tonight.... I AM SO EXCITED! It looks reeeeallly good! And the casting.... Wow.... Christian Bale, Hugh Jackman, Michael Caine, Andy Serkis, David Bowie, Scarlett Johansson... Ah-may-zing!

But, that's about it... I am going to shower, and practice... All that good stuff...

Hmmm...

My attempt at practicing tonight was severely thwarted by the fact that I have acquired a headache. Not cool.

I have my flute and piano lessons tomorrow. Not fun.

On second though I should have bought the metronome/tuner combination instead of just a metronome. Ooops.

I have pink eye. Bad!

I have awesome new glasses and up-to-date lenses, which will come sometime next week. Yay!

Steve B. is way fun and he has invited me to stop by his suite anytime to play super nintendo! :-D

Hallowe'en

	Schnoebbles's Halloween ...
	You will dress up as Captain Jack Sparrow, despite earlier plans.
	Isaac will get you A half-squeezed lemon
	Mike will get you A book that lets you write your own destiny
	Leah will get you bat-flavored licorice
	Brett will get you A time-stopping watch
	Amanda will get you A hotel key to room 101
'What will you get on Halloween?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Sorry!

Whoa... So it's been pretty much a week since I last updated... Sorry folks! Time just runs away!

Let's see what happened...

Well, Outfly was way fun! Leah and I got up and got dressed, joined up with Ted and Nathan and went to the bell, as per tradition... Then we went to breakfast... Then we all got back into our pajamas... (Well, Leah and I did... The guys didn't really have to do much... lol) And all took a nap in Ted and Jesse's room. When we woke up we went to lunch, then played my Pirates of the Caribbean Life board game, which I got for my birthday, then we went to Cedar Falls and had..... "Okay" Chinese... Then at 10 pm we went to the theatre and saw School for Scoundrels for a dollar. It was a really fun day! :-D

Then on Tuesday I taught at the middle school... And I was SO tired... It was really bad...

Nothing much else happened.... Except that on Wednesday Ted, Jesse, Leah and I had a fight, but we found a solution, and everything is okay now... It just got little hairy for a bit.

Wednesday, ArmyChris came on campus except that I wasn't at the dorm when he stopped by... So the next day Leah and I put up schedules so he'd know where we were... He stopped by twice and it was really nice to see him. :-) I've missed his hugs. One of the first things he said to me when he came over was, while pointing to my computer, "I read your blog... Do not lie to me, I am ArmyChris... Who is this Ted, and do I need to hurt him?" The answer was no, but I assured him that if anyone did anything to me I would let him know.

Friday afternoon I happened upon Brett on my way to lunch, and he also made an offer along the same lines... ("If anyone makes you cry, I'll make him bleed...") Oh, man... I have awesome guy friends!

Friday night I had dinner with "The Tribe" that was fun.... I got to cuddle with Brett on the couch and that was nice. Later that night Rachel V. and I went to Kastle Kapers, which is Wartburg's homecoming variety show. It was hilarious! The best act being Rittorchoir, Wartburg's all male ensemble, singing "Knights of the Round Table" from Spamalot. :-D It was hilarious.

Then I went over to Rachel's dorm and we watched Doctor Who... A good episode... AGAIN! :-)

...Then I eventually went back to the dorm... Wrote some e-mails... Then went to bed.

Saturday I went to the Ren Faire on campus. I bought a WTF track shirt and some ice cream... Then I did laundry and studied and showered and practiced then FINALLY started playing my Age of Empires game. :-) Which is pretty much awesome, I love it!

Leah came back from hanging out with her boyfriend and Ted, Nathan, Jesse, Leah and I went to the new pub in town... The Fainting Goat... to hear the band Funk Lotion play. It was fun, although reallllly crowded. Then Nathan, Ted, Leah and I went to Wal-mart, because we were hungry... And I wanted to by mascara... But then we forgot when we got there and just bought food... lol, oh well...

Then we came back and watched Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. It was a good time! Leah and I ended up crashing back here at the dorm around 3:30... Whew!

Then I got up at 7:30 am, went to church, then went and played with the Symphonic Band for the Sunday Homecoming Chapel service here on campus....

Then Leah, her boyfriend and I went to McDonalds for lunch... Then Leah and I performed in our concerts... Leah said her's wasn't the best, but I thought both bands did really well. :-)

Yeah... Stuff like that...

We did a crapload of music theory homework last night... :-P

I have become addicted to Seussical The Musical...

Tonight Leah and I are having dinner with Steve B. :-) This makes me happy.

Tomorrow I am coming home for the afternoon to get new glasses! :-D

And now we're back at the beginning of another week... NEXT WEEK IS FALL BREAK! AHHH! :-D

:-D

HAPPY

OUTFLY!!!

*sigh*

Age of Empires II is not allowing itself to install on my computer and it makes me mad.

According to Leah, Steve thinks I'm cute. But that's all I know.

Tonight I watched movies with Ted, Jesse, Nathan and Duane. *sigh* I need to stop looking for things that aren't there.

This is me. Still single.



"Who will be there for you
Comfort and care for you
Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion

...

Learn to Be lonely
Learn how to love life that is lived alone"

...

I just got back from seeing The Gaurdian with Jesse, Ted, Nathan, Duane and Leah.

Amazing movie....

Leah and I both bawled our eyes out, and Duane teased us afterwards.

Jerk.


It's a good movie and the crying felt good....

Mwahaha...

Hello World.

My name is Sarah and I am now a minion working for ITS. I can spread my corruption farther by poisoning your computer instead of your food.

Beware.


That is all.

Bleh...

Tomorrow I am going to ITS to ask for a job.

I have a piano lesson and a flute lesson.

I have to write a fugue.

I like naps.

I don't like homework.

Everything is a mess.

I don't like practicing.

Ted still smells nice.

Is it Outfly yet???

Recap...

So I'm sure you all would like to hear how awesome my birthday went yesterday!

And if you didn't, you wouldn't be reading this... :-)

So I got up, and Leah wished me a happy birthday.... And our stupid Wartburg internet was still not working so we had to go to music theory cut off from the world... I met up with Margie in front of our classroom and she hugged me while singing Happy Birthday, and that was awesome... I love hugs! :-D Then Rachel V. and Amanda sang to me once I got INTO the classroom... Theory went fine.... Fugues are pretty much the most evil of evilest musical things out there.... Then... I checked my mail and I got a package from home, and 3 cards! The package had Birthday Cereal (Trix and Kix...Yum!) plates, bowls, napkins, thank-you cards and a cutting knife. Back at my dorm, Rachel D. came over and gave me this awesome bracelet with a skull and crossbones hanging from it! (Which I love!) :-D Oh, and our interent started working and I had 23 (!) new messages. ALLLL but 3 from Facebook. :-D

Then I changed my outfit, like a million times, and I went to Lifespan Human Development.

Nothing exciting.

Then I went and took my History of Science exam.... Which was pretty much the most hilarious test I've ever taken... In the directions, after the usual "this is how you fill out the [stupid] scan-tron sheet" and "no cheating, [duh]" It said, "Since you've read this far, you deserve a treat. The answer to question 118 is A." Soooo I flip to the end of the test... And this was the last question:

118. Mares eat oats and does eat oats and little lambs eat ivy.
A. True B. False

HA!!!!!!!

How awesome is that? :-D I thought it was hilarious. That was quite an intersting test overall anyway... It had analogies... I haven't done those since the english section of the ACT test... :-P

Then Rachel V. and I went to lunch and Matt L., Rachel and Margie (again) sang Happy Birthday to me in the Mensa and they laughed afterward when my face turned bright red. (Curse you fair skin!!!) Leah joined us shortly after. When we finished I went to the information desk and picked up the angel food cake my mom ordered for me! :-D (Hence the knife in the package... So I can actually cut the cake this year...) :-)

I went back to the dorm and tried to clean while Leah left to run earrands. I really didn't get anything done as Rachel D. came over and we went to DQ for some birthday-ish celebratory ice cream. It was really good and an awesome good time, but there were lots of bees... :-P

Then I called Jessica back, cuz she had left a message while I was ice creaming, and I discovered that SHE WAS GOING HOME THIS WEEKEND TOO! :-D AHHH! :-D That made me very very very very very happy as I went to band.

Band rehearsal went better then Thursdays, although the piccolo I have is really giving me problems. :-P I haven't quite figured out its "personality" yet. The band sang to me and I got a couple hugs aftarwards! :-)

THEN! After band, in the lobby, Melissa, Jessie, and Rachel D. surrounded me and Melissa handed me a piece of paper with a rhyme written on it....It was a TREASURE HUNT! :-D They had clues for me to follow, which took about 35 minutes.... When I got to the dorms, Chelsea and Naiya joined the group. It was amazing and Jessie video taped it, which I want to figure out how to post here.... Especially since I really didn't realize that she was video taping, so it's genuine Sarah caught on film... LOL! It was crazy fun running up and down the stairs getting the different clues... The last clue led me to my own dorm and I found my present under a box with an "X" on it! It was the Pirates of the Caribbean Dice Game! :-D AND they gave me a plastic pirate hook! :-) Heee!!! They also gave me a cake made out of 3 musketeer mini-candy bars! Sooooo super, awesomely awesome!!!! :-D :-D :-D We took lots of pictures and they should be up here sometime in the future.

Then Melissa, Rachel D., Naiya, Jessie, Chelsea, Margie and I went to dinner and had a hilarious time... I made a puppet out of the apple I got from the fruit section and had fun making it talk to everyone at the table. Oh, and according to Naiya pianos go "tweet tweet tweet." (It's okay, you don't have to understand... Just know that it was hilarious!)

After dinner Margie, Michelle and I went to Christian's house, (Christian is Lourey's boyfriend) where we were going to watch the Doctor Who USA season premiere. Shortly after we got there, Rachel and Leah got back from Choir Bonding and we watched "Eddie Izzard Dressed to Kill" while we waited for Doctor Who to start. And I also opened presants.... :-D

I got:

A HOTT poster of Will Turner and a magazine about vacationing in the Caribbean from Lourey

A Pirates of the Caribbean II 16 month calander and a book about female pirates from Rachel V.! :-D

A black wristband that says "Pirates arrrrr cool", a black smokey-print skull and crossbones t-shirt, a skull and crossbones bandana, a skull and crossbones headband, skull and crossbones earrings, and skull and crossbones socks!!! All from Leah, who went to Hot Topic JUST for the piratey stuff!!! :-D (All I need are awesome pirate boots and some black nail-polish... And I could totally go "Gothic Pirate".)

I am so ready for Hallowe'en!!!! :-D

Then we ate the cake that Lourey made.... Marble, with chocolate frosting!!! SO GOOD! :-D We all ate really big pieces and it was amazing! :-D

Then Doctor Who came on..... WOW! I am in love with that show.... It's SO cool!!!!! :-D And David Tennant as the Doctor... So irresistable.... :-D Amazing profile... :-)

After Doctor Who Leah and I left, (we didn't get a chance to dye our hair, but that will happen SOMETIME) and met up with Ted, Jesse, and Nathan and we went out to Perkins. (My first Perkins run while at Wartburg btw...) It was really good, although I miss not being able to order off the senior menu... :-P Oh, and Leah got a little annoyed with me because I was showing off my knowledge of the Perkins menu... :-/ But our waitress was nice and I left her a nice tip on the table.

We still wanted to kill some time so we went to Wal-Mart and had fun just browsing.... Jesse got some Venus Fly Traps so he was happy... I looked at the Pirates of the Caribbean toys... Leah and I went through the guys cologne aisle and talked/giggled about what we liked... We looked at the fish... Looked at the Hallowe'en stuff... Where I got sufficiently scared by one of those inflateable lawn ornaments.... It was a coffin and this vampire deflates and inflates... Makeing it rise and lower back into the top of the coffin... I was looking at the singing pirate skeleton next to it and I stood next to the inflatable coffin in such a way that it gave off the illusion of being motion sensored.... Everyone thought it was funny... Well, yeah, it was.... But.. LOL.... Anyway, On the other side of the Hallowe'en stuff, in a display was another motion sensored manekin... Of a decaying butler-type figure... And its eyes freaked me out to no end, because they followed you... And Leah set it off and I jumped.... :-P I am such a scaredy-cat... But Ted gave me a hug... :-)

...

:-D


Then we wandered around Wal-Mart some more....

We got back to campus around 2:45. The guys ended up going to bed and not telling us, so Leah and I went to bed too.

A very very good day! A million thanks to everyone!!!!

Tonight Jessica and I went to see Open Season at the theatre here in town... It was cute.... Funny in parts, but not as hilarious as I was hoping. Then I went to her house and had some of her grandma's homemade cherry pie, ala mode!!! IT WAS SOOO GOOOOOD! :-D And we exchanged birthday gifts. I gave her an orange Wartburg Track and Field t-shirt, and she gave me a deck of cards with pirates on them, and a skull and crossbones mousepad. Which I love! :-D

It was a birthday of awesomeness and my heart is still rejoicing.

Thank-you!

Thank-you!

Rules...

Okay. Those of you who have Facebook, or read the date of events thing in the sidebar of this blog, or are my family and have it written on the calander, tomorrow is my birthday. I will be 20. I will be old. Here are some guidelines if you want to contact me:

1. I have a 9 am class. If you are my family and must call and say birthday-ish things at me, do not call before 8:30 am. And even then it will have to be short. If you are my friends and want to wake me up with balloons-- 8:30 is the earliest. And heaven help you if you wake me up before your 7:45 class.

2. My 1st class gets done at 10:05 am. Between then and 10:30 am anyone is free to call.

3. I don't get done with the rest of my classes until 1:05 pm. Then I go to lunch. I probably won't hear my phone, but you can call.

4. From 3:45 to 4:50 I have band. Don't bother calling.

5. My phone gets bad reception so it might just go to voicemail anyway. Leave a message if you feel so inclined and I'll get back to you, so you can say Happy Birthday to me again.

6. Don't worry, I will post pictures of me with my blue hair.

7. That is to say, if people even DO call me.

8. I'm going home Saturday afternoon.