Just because I'm 20 years old doesn't mean I'm an old maid by today's standards... I know this! People are living longer, and getting married later. But still. It hurts being alone. A lot. I'm not even pining after anyone anymore! I have no plausible crushes. No one. I'm no longer on an anti-chick-flick spree, I'm not a man-hater/feminist.
I'm just me.... with stupid PMS.
I wish on stars.
I make up stories in my head.
I don't like tuna.
I have performance anxiety.
I sing really loud in the car to music I like.
I am awkward, weird and random.
I have problems trying to control my crazy hair.
I write stories.
I love hugs.
I like old movies.
I wish I could dance.
I like to draw.
And I cry when I'm by myself. Like now.
Because I'm scared of being alone forever.
Being alone is a hard cross to bear. Especially when you have a roommate who is engaged and planning the wedding...
I don't want to be alone forever.
Someday I will be able to truthfully say YES I have a boyfriend.
Until then, I just imagine what life would be like if I could join my favorite fictional characters for something adventurous. Something to take my mind off this topic.
......
My friend The Doctor says
That every time it starts to rain -
And people run indoors again in swarms -
If you remain
Out in the rain,
You'll think you're drinking pink champagne! -
And you'll spend your life Praying for thunderstorms!
Maybe what The Doctor tells me
Isn't altogether true -
But I love every tale he tells me -
I don't know any better ones - Do you?
My friend The Doctor says
The world is full of fantasy -
And who are you and I to disagree?
Let's hope and pray
That is the way
The life we love will always stay
For my friend The Doctor
And me!
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